Posted by Sarana on 2/4/2005, 9:38 am Here is a picture I found. I think this was taken last summer. Oh how I miss my son! I feel sick!
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Sorry everyone I've been not myself lately. I've been very anti-social and hurting terrible. I can't enjoy anything latley. Even the up coming of my wedding I feel nothing. Empty and alone.
I had adopted another senior dog in December and unfortunalty it didn't work out. He was very aggressive with other dogs and I was worried he's eventually would hurt one (not like my sweet Buddy who loved everyone), unfortunatly he was not what I was told when we first adopted him so I had no choice but to return him to the adoption center for everyones, including his, saftey. The worse part is we bonded together and the pain of having to give him back broke my heart all over again.
Now I'm hurting again and again feeling empty just as when Buddy died. I feel even more alone and empty as I did from day one. It's been six months since I lost the love of my life. I'm terribly depressed and hate life. I'm holo without Bud. I can't do this. I don't feel like talking or seeing anyone.
I need help and due to weather I can't even make it to the meeting and honestly I don't even feel like being out. Most days I feel like just hiding out.
I want to wake up and find Buddy beside me and healthy as he always was. I want this to be a dream. I ned to wake up!!!
I hate this I can't be without him! I feel sick all the time.
Oh how I want to be sitting beside him on the grass right now like I always did.
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