Posted by kelly on 4/17/2005, 10:13 pm
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Today would have been Lily's fourth birthday. She was with her mother (who is still alive) for four days before I took her home. I often wonder if I had only rescued her sooner she may not have had kidney failure. If I had known then that she would only live two years would I still have taken her home?
I miss her so much.
I've tried to do things to keep her with me but she's gone.There's a song that says "I saved everything ..but you"
That's how I feel, as though I let her slip away.
In fact I euthanised her myself so I sent her away. I replay every moment of her last day in my head. I wish I had kept her with me all day, why didn't I?
Anyway, I just wanted to tell someone how beautiful she was and how much I loved her. We planned to take the dogs to the coast in the summer. She loved the water.
I thought there would be more time.
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